kite runner

Last night was kind of sleepless.... i was reading this famous novel The Kite Runner... it was 1:20am, went hardly till 5th chapter and i felt so restless that i threw the novel on the table and went to bed and felt either i will vomit or start crying and after 5 minutes i did started crying... my thoughts were running endless i was trying to stop and sleep but was not able to ......
it started with how things started changing in Afganistan.. how just for the position ppl started using Majahab.... how it affected the mind set of little ones too it forced ppl to leave their own land

and then my thoughts switched to our country my mother land India... arnt we affected isnt like some how we are on the same way atleast there is a whole lot of ppl trying to push it towards the same way.....

and then again my thoughts switched to what our generation is actually doing there is two different set of ppl in our generation, one set is running madly behind making money working like crazy most of the time for some one else that reminded me of one of the old saying
"Zindagi mein shekh kya karunama kar gaye, B.A kiya naukar bane pension mili aur mar gaye"
one the other hand there is 2nd set of ppl who are invloved in crime, terreorrissm, dirty politics, drugs all of them some time missguided and some of the time get involved into knowingly with the desire of power and money...........

But all 2 set of ppl have forgotten something they have forgetten their duty towards their mother land, how much in pain she would have been with all these bomb blasts, with every rape of a girl, with every child becoming orphan, with every mother loosing her son, with every war among her child.
And this again left me with a question Was this for what so many sons of our mother land died fighting for her freedom ... doesn't it looks like a complete waste of their life giving sacrifice for next generation so they can breath the air in an independent India, and it ended up with our people fighting with each other. Just for mere lust for power and position all this is taking place everyone want to be on top but with no duties and no responsibilities.

But then again my thought changed its direction and this time it was directed towards me.... what i am doing for my nation? in which set of people i stand? for sure the 2nd set madly running behind my targets..... crazy behind earning more and more money and then spending it for a comfortable and sumtime even luxurious life style.... staying away from all that can cause me any kind of inconvenience or pain......

Some where i came far away from my dream of doing something for my society for my land, lost in my job, my family, friends.... but i have to go back to my dream, to my land and will have to work for my society.... i felt some where in my heart i was feeling heavy it was even hard to breath i realised my heart is feeling heavy coz it is not able to take the burden of guilt of which i was aware of and now from which i have to come out by not being a coward and face the reality, take the pain for if i dont take it now my soul wont rest in peace and it will be in pain forever.

Something that touched my Heart

After a week of diwali I was chatting with one of my friend, he is doing his MBA from XIMB and stays in hostel. I asked him how was your diwali... and in reply what he said actually touched my heart.
He told me that he with few of his friends went to an orphanage on the day of diwali and celebrated diwali with the kids over there. When they went there initially there was no celebration going on, no candles and no sweets for kids. Then my friend alongwith his group distributed sweets and crackers among kids of orphanage and lightened the whole place with candles.
My friend even showed the photographs of that day.




Watching those photos i was able to see the enthusiasm and happiness on the face of kids... and their bright eyes and true smiles were actually giving a real message of diwali.. diwali a "Festival of Lights" victory of light of darkness.

I really felt so proud of my friend and this incidence motivated me so much that I have been sharing his experince to everyone have asked others too to spread this message and let people know that we can celebrate diwali in a better way, that our little efforts can make huge difference in someone's life.

We can even do this by supporting the education of one child. Any one who is interested can check this below given link for further details:

http://www.worldvision.in/landing/sponsornow.php

Diwali.. a festival of lights or Pollution....

M back from a small vacation went to madurai to spend diwali with my cousin.....
enjoyed the home made food and being with family. but not feeling like working today may b tired due to lot of travel i did or may b the hang over of home.... :)

I love everything in diwali lights, diya, sweets, decorations, rangoli. But there is only one thing which is really harmful and even irritating. That is pollution, on the day of diwali I was quite irritated of the noice of bombs. I was not able to talk properly on phone with anyone all my family members and friends were calling to wish diwali but noice was so much that neither me nor the the person on other side was properly able to hear. This noice started from morning 9am and continued till night 11pm approx. And this continued for the 2nd day too. I was so irritated that by evening I was not at all in a mood to go out and have fun with my friends.

Next day I went out in evening to collect some medicines for me as i cought cold I was not able to breath properly due to the smoke in environment.

All this made me feel really bad Diwali is a festival for lights which can be done using Diya the most beautiful option these days we can even use series bulbs and candels for the same. Why we need something which creates noice and smoke. The lights were lit up becouse light is the resemblance of victory over dark and evil, and by using crackers we are actually creating pollution which anyway is going to harm our nature and give us problems in return.

I have decided from next diwali i wont lit up any crackers which create noice pollution or air pollution. This going to benefit us and our next gen too.

Thank U God

"I dont know what to write, and I dont know why am here... some time days are so boring today in office nothing went on well.... m nt able to move the things ahead... still m writing abt it may be to get the frustration out of me... and a simple thing which makes me feel good is the chatting m able to do in between of my work with my frnds bt strange today things went wrong even there some time it is like nothing can be placed at rite place and I end up wondering why the hell it is happening with me...... "

This is what we ask when things went wrong and today is one of the worst day and i ended up thinking why the hell it happens with me???? but again this question leaves me with one more thought when things were going on smooth i was not asking why the hell it is happening with me why everything is so good how come i got a job so easily and how come i setteled down so easily in a new place new job new enviornment. I guess if i didnt asked then i dont have rite to ask it now even.

Today i just want to thanks.. THANK U GOD for ur luv care and making my way easy most of the time and today thanks for putting ur effort in making me tuff for bad situations.

:)

Does WORD LAST FOREVER????????

words are just mode of expressing our feelings and Opinions...... opinion is something intangible we cant see it cant touch it but still prefer being stick to it once it is been made or rather expressed in Words ... coz we believe that words are something that last forever...... but how do we get to form our opinion exactly ... well the answer is our day to day experinces with our friends, our family, our working environment, with our peers, forms our opinion......

Lets think it in a different way ...... how we use to look when we were born??? of what weight we were????? see it after 10 or 20 years of being born on this earth how we look now ??? and ... (well lets not discuss about weight )
looks actually is our identity and something very tangible anyway..... keeps on changing infact if we go scientifically every cell of our body is changed in one year of time........ but strange we are ready to accept this change so easily infact we are not even aware or rather bothered about this change of something so important in our life can go so unnoticed..........
But if we again come back to our opinons expressed in words..... it is so difficult to change it or rather it get changed very easily, but since we belive the words expressing our opinons last forever it becomes difficult to accept this change .................... but is it really so hard accepting the change in opinions........